I don’t know how to express to him.
It’s really hurting me.
But I can’t say it, because when I say it, it’s sounds like I’m being ridiculous.
Like I’m being annoying. He keeps talking… about something. About some far off place. But I can’t focus. I just nod, and then hold my breath so I can respond “uh huh”.
I hate this, was this how it was supposed to be?
Everything is a blur. He keeps going on, like everything is normal. Why won’t he agree that everything is not normal?
But he doesn’t care, it doesn’t matter. As long as his agenda