I’m scared

If you know one thing about me, its that I have no problems meeting people and making new friends. That is… until now. Now, I’m so uncomfortable, and I feel extremely vulnerable. Not really sure whats going on in my head and my subconscious….  but its a bit difficult. Is it my confidence that is waning? Have I endured a hit so great, that it has dented and impaled my confidence?

My friends are all wonderfully awesome, and take me out to meet new people and introduce me to friends, etc etc… but I’m so scared. I’m terrified. My confidence has vanished, and with every person I meet, I’m speechless (which is even stranger…), and I’m completely numbed with self-doubt.

So is this really terror? Or is it more like paralysis? Is this paralysis because of terror? Or because of self-doubt? I DON’T WANT TO BE PARALYZED!!! Give me back my old self!!!

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